First of all, i feel greatful for the fact that most people that i care showed up to the concert. You guys are a great support to me.

After the concert i just realized, what could be more important? Confirmation of all those friendships, my own belief, passion for piano. Whatever the result is does not seem that important as long as one has put enough effort and tried hard.

 

I want to mention my piano teacher. During the concert i made mistakes that i never did in the past, even couldnt continue on the first piece on stage, that i had to make the middle part sound like an end in order to end the piece. I played 2 pieces at once. After i finished the 2 pieces, i rushed a little bit at bowing, without looking at the audience, and went to the back stage. I felt quite helpless at the moment, even though people back stage were smiling and saying things like "congratulations" "you did really good job", it still didnt help that much. I doubt i was going to cry. Then i heard running footsteps..  It was my piano teacher, i saw him appear right there in the back stage. My friend later told me, soon after i finished my piece my teacher ran from the seat to the back stage. And he said many things, so i think i felt better at the moment. At least, there wasn't time for me to do anything else. en.

 

I was so glad to see my friends come.

For P and K, today was the first time for 3 of us to get together this semester. Love them. Thanks to their bfs as well. It's just so nice to see those 2 couples together.

Thank L for coming as well, even though i knew she was always the one who would definitely show up. Good luck on her coming concert and romance as well.

Thank D for coming early out of class to attend my concert.

Thank J, V, and S, even S who wasnt that sure whether or not to come at first because of business. V, for that he isn't much of a big fan on classical music but stayed for the whole thing. J, for that the sent txt msgs that made me feel better after my performance.

 

And i stayed until the end. After the end when we were leaving, Mr. G threw good words to me. Pretty surprised.

 

Overall, yep. Unforgettable. So much to be kept.

我我的心里
住了一大群
吵闹的风笛

我想要旅行
没有目的地
单纯逃离

关于人们窃窃私语
笑容的真实
我并不想在意
关于生活的选择题
答案在风里
我想起了
一首歌的道理

我怎么定义
不想做决定
也没关系

关于爱不爱的问题
谎言的善意
我只想清干净
关于生命的是非题
答案在雨里
我只看见
淡灰色的风景

受过伤的记忆
一直都还没有痊愈
需要被隔离
需要更多的空气
我让自己相信
终于在长期折磨里
得到免疫

关于人们窃窃私语
笑容的真实
我并不想在意
关于生活的选择题
答案在风里
我想起了
一首歌的旋律

那时候, 如果被问想拥有怎样的特异功能, 我会选择飞.

天空那头有什么, 不重要.

只想往有风吹来的地方去.

想要逃离一个地方就随时可以启程.

Did i sound hateful in my last blog? Hopefully not. I don't have time to check that now. It's going to be crazy busy, long day tomorrow. but before all that, i still want to write a blog for today.

今天整个一天都在校外, 忙一些事情. 很高兴能帮助家里. 也小有些成就感.

早上7点就起床, 9点钟从学校出发去flushing. 晚上8点回到学校.

回学校的时候已经是精疲力尽.

但是马上接到L的电话. 当时刚好路过昨天事发地点, 并且还见到了那个和我吵的老头.

(Center的门是透明的. 他的办公室就在大门的旁边).

 

我在电话上跟L说了, 并且突然间冒出个想法, 就是去会会这个老头.

decision was made within less than two seconds. 真的是两秒钟之内.

I told L i will call her back in a while. after hang up on her, i walked straight to the manager's office on the side of the gate to the Center.

I knocked on his door. He saw it was me. I said "it's me" and pointing to myself.

He stared at me when holding the thing he was holding in the air.

I blahed 3 sentences out of my mouth, without realizing it, or planning.

Seconds later, he shook out his hand, ready to shake hands.

It shocked me, "Oh god.." and we shook hands.

Later on i told him it was a bad day for me yesterday.

This time i shook out my hand, and we had 2nd shaking.

Then it's done.

有些感触.

 

Later on L came over. We both had crazy days.

We excanged paper tissue with our quotes in the Cafe. Pretty inspiring.

 

 

But but ...then we both just have to run to cram enough tonight to make sure tomorrow is going to be just okay.

 

I just have to rush this blog.

 

 

 

 

To be continued.

没想到这种事也最终会发生. 也不知道他和我两个人怎么同时都有那么大的火气.

第二学年一开学, 我在学校住的地方换新的quad manager第一个星期就有事情发生.

原因是钢琴房没有按时开, 影响大家练琴. 虽说事情很小, 但是还是得因人而议.

说是'大家', 其实是一个比较'个人'的投诉EMAIL.

说是投诉, 那个时候写给他及他头上的manager的匿名EMAIL还只是建议及感谢性的书信.

转眼一个半学期过去了.

 

今天他闯入我的琴房, 发现钢琴上面放的pizza盒, 就一触即发了.

说是闯, 还是因为我事先锁门.

有我的原因.

本来他进来只是想看谁锁了门, 不应该锁门. 但是进来后看到琴房里有吃的东西..

 

都不是省油的灯, 后果也不好.

他拿起电话准备打security 的时候也不是很激动, 只是想让我把我的ID给他看.

到后来实在受不了, 言语也开始激动, 他又要播security.

吵了, 也留了真实姓名在纸上, 他还要我的电话, 我当场拒绝.

又说要打security. 我又说"hold on one moment, you have no reason to call the security. i gave you my name. etc"

他又止住.

后来自己变得很激动. 是他反复积压.

前面的rude actions都不是最重点的. 他一提到, "以后不允许我再出现在楼里", 当场激翻.

走人.

 

如果自己在他的quad里有什么record issue我就会采取行动. 

他每次说打security 的时候都会让我想到我地理课上的那个被开除了的研究生.

原由是他因为对助教的改卷制度很不满意, 跑去理论, 后来变得很激动, 走廊上我们都听到他的哭声, 于是第二个星期被开除.

但是今天这个人也太神经了.....OMG 

 

事后一会儿感觉平静了. 只是不知道当时哪来的火气.

要说投诉, 人多到可以排队了, 还不多我一个.

 

但是说回来, 自己还是很不冷静. 至少, 不成熟吧.

 

最近的事情很多, 也是时候平静下来了.

 

 

 

Grace今天应该到NY的. 期待.

 

家里还是那些事情.

学校, 呵呵.

 

这件事先不想了. 等我收到开除通知书再说. (开玩笑)

不过真得为自己练习钢琴另外找地点了. 哎.

星期四找我boss去...

 

(fun to record)